PATIENCE

I knew better, but I did it anyway. I asked my Higher Self to teach me PATIENCE. “This is something I really want to learn,” I wrote. “And I would greatly appreciate it if you could you please teach me in the most gentle way possible.” I was serious. And apparently Spirit understood that, because about an hour later the lesson began.

Let me back up a bit. I’ve been having some challenges lately. Ever since I wrote this book, I have been impatient about getting it into the hands of those who need it. I have felt like someone else’s agent- Spirit’s representative- an agent to the true author of this book. I have felt a responsibility to bring this work into the world because writing it healed me, and I am driven to help others improve the quality of their lives. I can’t help it- I was born this way.

I know that impatience is not an energy I need to be sending out into the Universe. I understand that if I am impatient, the Universe is going to bring me more things to be impatient about. But has that stopped me from checking my email a thousand times a day? No. So Spirit found a way to stop me.

I had a really bad gut feeling when John was removing old programs from our computer.. But, I didn’t want to offend him. I didn’t want to ask if he knew what he was doing. I’ve done that before; suffice it to say it didn’t go over very well. So, I kept quiet. I waited until he was finished and then I checked my email. Unfortunately, for some reason I wasn’t able to get to it. That’s when I realized something was wrong.

Not only was I unable to access my email, I couldn’t access anything on the internet. It took a moment, but then I realized why. I had asked for help. The Universe was “helping” me.

The internet had been removed from our computer, because John had “accidentally” deleted it from the system. In other words, checking email was temporarily impossible. I had no choice but to be patient.

So, I made good use of my time. JP was at his girlfriend’s house, and Thomas went to the beach with his dad. So, I spent an entire day in the basement, sorting through six enormous bins of old toys. It was something I had needed to do, and was putting it off. I ended up throwing away most of the things I found, but was able to salvage some things to donate. It was my therapy, another exercise in patience- a very long, tedious chore.

I ended up writing a thank you note to Spirit. I wanted to express my gratitude for the prompt response to my request. I am beginning to learn patience now. Yes, I have a long way to go, but at least I’m on my way. As for my next spiritual lesson, I’m going to make sure I’m really clear before I put any Divine requests in writing- before I even think about asking my Guides for guidance.